For myself

I barely lost my goal, not really lost, i haven't found it yet, darn.
Who am i? What am i gonna do? Where should i start? What makes me happy?
The only thing i remember, i love to learn anything/everything from anybody/everybody.
At least i remember this one. fuh.
It is really hard. I applied for some jobs. But then i realized,
i am still confused with what i really want.
My hobby is travelling and meet new people, especially foreign people.
May be i should pursue this one.

Sometimes i am very diligent, sometimes very lazy.
Last month i discussed my problem with one of our lecturer(A Doctor Doctor).
He told me, it is impossible to be everything unless you are generalist person.
But he told me that i shouldn't do that. "You know it is impossible for you to marry all woman in this world. It is impossible to be everything." Nice one sir, thx.

I just remembered Surya and Dirga told me, "just do whatever you love to do".
But what if i am confused about what i really love to do?
Oh yeah i remembered that i love to learn. Okay, may be i'll do this one.

How to swim

N years ago i downloaded some videos from fina.org. I learnt about freestyle swimming, butterfly swimming, breaststyle swimming. Very interesting. Well, actually i have many tutors about swimming, my brothers, friends, relatives, and some strangers, =D.

About N months ago, my brother was confused about how to play violin. I'll help him, but i can't even play guitar nor piano. But i am a computer guy (superman =P). i searched on google about "how to play violin". I found expertvillage.com. Oh thanks to expertvillage.com and people who shared their knowledge and experiences there. And now, i can learnt about many things.

Actually i had thought about creating a website about "how to do" in indonesian language. But, i found these sites: expertvillage.com, wikihow, youtube, ...how, hmm... i think, if i really wanna create the samething it should have something special than those sites. ah forget about it, my point is, it is good to share knowledge and i will share mine too.

I'll learn more later about GNU, Open Source, Copyleft, blablablah.

Outliers

reading blog nofieiman.com, the outliers.

Very interesting, i used to hear the similar theory from my lecture, parents, teachers/ustadz, Mr.Widyanto, to surpass other's knowledge/technology/success, study harder, spend more time, work harder than them. East Asia people do this he told me, Japanese, Chinese, Korean, ..., . =)

--i posted the similar posting at ikhsanindonesia.blogspot.com too

20081206ikhsanindonesia.blogspot.com created

Because this is my first time having "personal" internet connection
i created this blog IkhsanIndonesia
Hope i can contribute to enrich indonesian's blogs, Aamiin =D

yesiamstupid.blogspot.com

20081201 Yes I am Stupid

08.00AM
lil breakfast, drink my medicine, lil talk with friends
yesiamstupid.blogspot.com is created
The more i learn, the more i realize that there many things that i don't know =D

yo, pray for my research, i am finishing it, wataa

20080811 so damn hard to sleep

02:41am
I think ill never ever sleep in the morning/day/afternoon anymore
it becomes hard to sleep in the night
hmm......

--reading blogs
hmm...... i feel so lonely
Alhamdulillah, i've an internet connection
then i can read blogs, put some comments
and find another news

--today i should decide
to continue to research this goats or change the subject to humans
hmm...
my goats...., why are they so unstable

--going to chemie, take a test :D
--to aiesec, forcing them to give me a responsibility :D
OMG, there are nothing to do, and they gave me a task to create a blog
what??? technical stuff again :D
okay... ill create it

--i still can't access blogger in my network :/
--i can't post this diary again

"Natasha Bedingfield-Unwritten
...
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten, yeah
..."

nice song hah :D
tribute to martius, hehehe
pantene's advertisement theme song is really good :D

i just think
may be in these next 4 or 10 years
ill be like a sponge who will absorb everything
everything about knowledge
actually this is kinda dangerous :D
but ill carefully learn step by step
it is hard to differentiate or classify the most important
knowledge that i need right now :D

--watching avatar

20080810Morning

--MelayuOnline.com will he sell it to our neighbour country? :D
--bbc planet earth seasonal forests
usually i feel happy everyday
but somehow i imagine the world with all people live in peace
:D
no greedy, poverty, stupidity, bla bla bla

i often think
that life is so short
For us who are living nowadays,

we can predict their age
Reading wikipedia about oldest people,
and age

we can predict that almost impossible for people
to live for more than 12x years
And the chance to live more that 60-80 years is small

Then, after knowing how long we will live
every person should prepare and should live
as happy as possible and
make friends
as much as possible

No body wanna have a worst life
everybody wanna have a happy life

The question is
how to live longer and happier?
by making good relationship as much as possible :D

talking about internet
i am lazy to go out of my room
i prefer to chat or to communicate via internet more
hmm........
this is better,
faster, and hehehehe, cheaper

--asking a friend. don't u wanna teach students anymore?
he told me that teaching students kinda boring for him
hehehe, people are sure unique

--BBC Planet Earth Ocean Deep
wow....
water desert, so wide and i can feel freedom
by watching it :D
Freedom to go anywhere
to dive as deep as possible

wow...
there is a whale sharks *_*
sooooo big and soo long

a school of dolphins
working together with groups of birds
to catch a swarm of fish :D
good teamwork :D
efficient hunting

...i can't write anymore
soo beautiful
there are animals that defy classifications :D
in the deepest of the sea there are still life
stragest animal/plant

--discussing with friends. actually i am just listening
and making sure about what they are talking :D
wow, they are great, knowing many things that i didn't know b4
good good
Oh yeah i love to hear this..
"Ikhsan, u shouldn't read this, i love u and i don't want u to
read that kind of books"
kehkehkehkeh
some of friends often think me as an innocent person,
its okay, but i am not that innocent. u c
but.. its okay
and i love to read everything, no to learn everything i mean
to share everything
to better the world

--reading some blogs
but i can't comment on blogspot, the trojan in our LAN prevent me
to access any secure site or some site like gmail, blogger, yahoo mail, etc

20080809 laziness

i am really lazy to write diary these days
my father came here, and we had many talks
:D
Discussed many things
He already came back to his place
Alhamdulillah, the travelling was safe
My lil sis is in his room right now
And i've returned her monitor with tv tuner,
huaaaa, i can't watch tv news anymore
i can't learn english from tvri anymore
can't watch oprah, debates, islamic lecture.
Plenty of them.
TV programmes today are becoming better
MetroTV, DAAITV, StarOne, and TVRI
i can learn manythings from their programmes :D
Thank U.
Mario Teguh at O Channel is good too :D

Talking about aiesec,
i hope i can participate in their projects
i wam waiting for it
with passion :D
To bring peace and fulfill our potential
And i am really happy that i am their member right now
huaaa, i still can't believe it :D
Thank u, thank u

--watching BBC Planet Earth - Shallow Seas
-huhuhuuuuu watching alone, i hope i can watch this movie
with my wife(but i haven't), hard hah, to live as a bachelor
I hope ill be busy, to learn more and more,
to share more and more
to make friends as much as possible

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
first step by joining aiesec,
i am really happy :D

--continue watching planet earth
OMG, Astaghfirullah, pleas help that penguin
That seal wanna eat her/him
I don't hate seal, but this is so harsh
Watching seal attacking penguin and bite it's neck :|

--
i just remembered
talking about taxi in jakarta
bluebird is really good
Thank u very much bluebird
u help us a lot
i hope the driver and staffs, all of dedicated stakeholder of bluebird
have a happy life :D
and their family too
May Allah bless u :D

--chatting with friends

--
i saw a cat sleeping in front of my dor
he/she usually sleep there
--creating a cat house, 5' done
but where is the cat? hmm...
whatever, i've put it in front of my door
by hoping he/she ll sleep there :D

--oh yeah i forgot to write about aiesec
aiesec roll dance is good :D
aiesec roll call hah, hehehe

20080808GoodTiger

Once upon a time
in a certain planet..
there are 3 islands..
haah, boring, boring, boring

eits, wait
I am really happy today :D
why??
because they told me that i am already a member of aiesec
cihui
so i can participate and learn more
and i can contribute too in this organization :D
waaaaaaahuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

--aiesec induction
wooooi aiesec committee, thx very much, i am really happy :D
hai aiesec... wassup
how do u feel? excellent
how do u super feel? super excellent
how do u super duper feel? super duper excellent :D
aiesec roll dance is really good :D

--pick up my lil sis at airport
--discussed with my father,
so... where do u wanna work?
yes sir, ill fulfill my responsibilities :D

OMG i hope ill work and develop myself in
company that awares with earth, society,
and cares with people and country.
and has good corporate governance culture :D aamiin
actually i am bored, and get lazy to write something :D

20080807 so cold

this thursday morning
i feel so cold
i am not sure why
may be afraid of TOEFL test :D

--blogwalking
sometime, i need to calm down..
think more, and learn more, and share more

ihsan.. what is it mean?
perfection, excellence, goodness
to sharpen knowledge more to solve problem not to cut the problem :D
--surfing friendster

--taking toefl prediction test at feui
huaaa, i couldn't hear it clearly,
it was different with what i've trained with earphone

--my father surprises me by coming here :D
hehehehe, its okay
he seems very tired.
this night as usual i order healthy food to the padang food stall
near my boarding house
and four glasses of fruit juice. delicious :P
its not expensive at all.

Usually, students eat here.
I told my father, i can't guarantee that u'll get this
healthy food with good environtment if u stay at inn or hotel
Alhamdulillah, i hope this healthy dinner will make us healthier :D

--lil discussed about food, food stall, knowledge, my experiences and..
time to sleep, hehehe
May Allah bless u my father :D